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How a Bush loving
republican became a Muslim.
Asalam Walaikum
My name is Abdullah and I am a revert to Islam. I embraced Islam in
the month of July 2003. I was born and raised in Fort Worth Texas.
I was raised in a Non-Religious home. Where I would hardly ever go
to church. My mother did not care about religion and my father did
not care about religion. I was raised in a Culturally Christian Home
when you did celebrate Christmas but you did not know why. It was
just a day of materialism.
While I was a child and I did not really know much about God but I
firmly had a strong belief and a strong fear of the rath of God (as
I was a child). every night in fear of god I did not know anything
else to say except (I love god). I would say this so much I would
just fall asleep saying it.
when I was in the third grade It was the time of Christmas. My
mother did not have the money to buy us gifts. she had just divorced
and hardly had enough money to pay the bills. so because of this she
knew a Christian man at her work that was taking children and
getting them gifts for themselves and for their families. After We
had gotten our gifts and it was the end of the day this man gave me
a King James Version of the Bible. I took it thankfully with me to
my home.
The next day I was going to my grandmothers house and I took that
bible with me. When I saw my grandmother packing some old books of
hers I asked her to put my bible in those boxes because i knew I was
a young child and i did not want to lose my Bible.
So years past and I did not see that bible a gain for a long time.
Finally when I started High school was in my grandmothers house and
I saw that bible she had packed away for me so long ago. I took it
with me to another city hundreds of miles away. I was going to
school far away from were my family was due to a small vision
problem that I have.
So I was at the school and I put that Bible away for a while. I felt
i did not need it I was not so religious at that time in my life. I
had kind of left religion alone for a few years because the ways of
my mother and father had effected me but I still had that belief in
God.
As time went on that school year i started to feel a void in myself
like something was missing. I remember thinking to my self scarily
that I was going to go to hell. I felt like i was just going to be
condemned to hell. I was depressed because I did not know what the
truth was. yeah I know of Christianity but people made it up into a
joke a lot of the time and if they were not making a joke of it it
was just a show to watch. I was more culture than anything and I
hated that. I did not have much respect for Christians or
Christianity at that time.
I had no other choice than to look into that bible that was given to
me so many years ago because I did not know of any other religion
besides Christianity. When I picked up that bible I had no idea what
it was saying because it was in that old English that no one speaks.
You know the KJV (King James Version). I could not understand it but
i gave it my all i started to get it but there was just something
missing. I tried to deal with it not really knowing of any other
bible that I could understand so I put Christianity away for a year
or so.
As time went on I just could not stand not knowing the truth. So i
started to go back to church. I found a NIV bible in my church and
that thing was the most easiest thing to understand. I was going to
church every Sunday 4 times a month plus every 3 time during the
week when they would have a program going on. I was one of the most
active members of that church but as time went on Things were just
not feeling right. I could just feel in my soul that this was just
not the right religion.
I believed in everything the bible said I would not question even a
dot of what the Bible was saying.
then came a dream that I will never ever forget. I had this dream
many times. I was dreaming that I was sitting down and Jesus (Peace
and blessing of Allah (SWT) be upon him) was teaching me. What he
was showing me was a beautiful gold wall but this wall had become
corrupted. This was a wall of golden bricks but in some parts of
this wall some of the golden bricks were taken out and replaced with
what i would describe as dirty mud. I then remember sitting at a
table with my head down and Jesus (Peace and blessing of Allah
(SWT) be upon him) was also sitting at the table with his head down
as well. I think he had something in front of him but I am not sure
but from what I remember he was teaching me how the religion that he
came to teach had been corrupted. What he was teaching me was not in
words it is very hare to explain. but during the dream I took in
150% of what he was telling me and I believed and understood
what he had said..
After that dream I remember waking up on my back wondering what the
dream was all about. I did not remember really what i was being
taught until i became a Muslim and I understood the signs but the
thing that i knew after that dream is that I had to find the truth.
As time went on I was looking into the Jewish faith. I liked it at
the time and I called a rabbi to talk to him but because i still
held the belief of a Christian as Jesus being the son of god he
harshly hung up the phone on me and i did not care to look at the
Jewish faith.
After Years of being subject to the anti Islamic propaganda by the
west i grew to hate Islam and Muslims. But that was something on my
political views. I did not like it in that aspect of my life but in
another aspect of my life I could mute out the sound of the
propaganda and watch these shows about the Muslims. I would see how
they pray and I liked it. I would see how these people could
memorize the HOLE QURAN and I loved it. I was trying to memorize
parts of the bible and yes I did. Just things you would hear in the
movies lol.
I saw that these Muslims were for real and I needed to check them
out. So while I was on the internet I would try to find something
that was about Islam but when you don't know a thing about Islam its
hard to find something of use to you. Well it was at least to me.
I downloaded a Quran but I did not read it as you should. I just
opened it up in the middle and I had no idea what was going on. I
should have started from the very first chapter to the second and so
on and so forth but I did not. so when I was reading the quran on my
computer my dad walked by and he saw what I was doing and he
said" I' AM NOT GOING TO HAVE ANY DAMB MUSLIMS LIVING UNDER MY
ROOF" It kinda scared me for a while. I would not really look
into Islam online in fear my dad would do something. but one day
when we were at the book store i had this DEEP DEEP desire to go and
see if i could find a quran but seeing as how i can not see well I
would have need to ask a person who worked their for help but it was
not even a year after 911 so I was scared that they would say
something and I did not want my dad to see me in that part of the
book store. So I did not look into Islam for a few months but I had
still this deep desire to learn as much as I could about Islam
It was after I left my fathers home to leave leave for new Mexico
where my grandfather and grandmother needed me because they were
growing of old age and could not do the things they use to do. They
needed me to help them with those things they could not do anymore
After I had been in new Mexico with my grandparents I looked into
Islam again. I found a website about how Christian Preachers and
Priests and ministers were all becoming Muslims. This was the most
interesting thing I had ever come across.
So I looked at that site read the story on how this one preacher
came to Islam and all that and then alhamdullilah I found a lot of
other sites about Islam that had good information and everything
seemed to be going good learning about Islam. the same day i went
back to the website about the preacher becoming Muslim and i read
almost everything i could get my mouse to click on . Towards the end
of my visit to his website and after reading everything he had
posted there I went back to that story on how he became a Muslim.
Towards the end of his story was out in his back yard talking with
this Muslim man that was staying with him. they talked all night
about how his wife is becoming Muslim and about Islam in general and
so when that Muslim man walked off to go pray in the house the
preacher was still out there walking around and thinking
He saw a piece of plywood leaning against a tree and he took it and
faced it towards Mecca and he made his prostration and while he was
doing this he said "OH GOD IF YOUR THERE GUIDE ME" when I
was reading that prayer that he was making I was not just reading it
I was praying it also. and when i prayed that prayer for guidance, I
was guided. It felt like a bold of lightning came down and struck me
it was so beautiful I will never forget that feeling of finding what
you have been looking for for so many years.......
After that I called a masjid and someone picked me up and I made my
first shahadah.
The website that helped me come to islam is www.islamtomorrow.com.
that's the site about he preacher coming to Islam
This is the ending of one story but it is the beginning of another
If you have any questions about how I changed and how my life was
changed please ask and I will get back to you as soon as I can
It took me more than an hour to type this up so i hope ya'll got
something from it Insha'Allah
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